from the moment gentaro did it, he knew it’d be a big deal, one he couldn’t just shake off or forget or compartmentalize. it would be something he’d eventually have to tell dice, to mention, because this world isn’t that big in the grand scheme of things and he wasn’t going to hide something so awkward.
even with dice’s smile and words he knows there’s something off. he isn’t sure how, or why, and maybe he’s just projecting his own clawing guilt over something he knows neither of them want him to feel guilty over.
he sits up more, cat stirring and jumping away as if she senses the tension.
gentaro’s hand goes for dice’s cheek, cups it, hard, tries to turn his face towards him to kiss him with perhaps just as much desperation as that time they saw each other again after three weeks.
he’s sorry for being a coward back then, sorry for even bringing this up. it’s such a mess of a feeling but his lips are insistent, warm, apologetic. )
I love you. ( your shining star is a flawed, complicated and reckless mess of a man, not someone to be idolized. )
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from the moment gentaro did it, he knew it’d be a big deal, one he couldn’t just shake off or forget or compartmentalize. it would be something he’d eventually have to tell dice, to mention, because this world isn’t that big in the grand scheme of things and he wasn’t going to hide something so awkward.
even with dice’s smile and words he knows there’s something off. he isn’t sure how, or why, and maybe he’s just projecting his own clawing guilt over something he knows neither of them want him to feel guilty over.
he sits up more, cat stirring and jumping away as if she senses the tension.
gentaro’s hand goes for dice’s cheek, cups it, hard, tries to turn his face towards him to kiss him with perhaps just as much desperation as that time they saw each other again after three weeks.
he’s sorry for being a coward back then, sorry for even bringing this up. it’s such a mess of a feeling but his lips are insistent, warm, apologetic. )
I love you. ( your shining star is a flawed, complicated and reckless mess of a man, not someone to be idolized. )